Hungry For The Anointed One

I am not a writer, but will try to share with you some thoughts about what living the life of faith has been to me. Born the eldest of a family of seven in Haiti , I became a resident of the USA in the early 1980s. While attending medical school in Haiti, I met the friendlier young Christian male who turned my life around. Suddenly, I found myself moving to California where we were married a year and half later. Nineteen years later, the Lord entrusted us with four children. My baby went to God at five-months old after a long illness for his short life.

Few years ago, I found myself analyzing my life and wondering why this unsatisfaction and emptiness? It seems that I was in competition with the Proverb 31 woman. Smile! I earned a MABE degree from CSU Los Angeles, became a notary public, spent few years in the Navy, earned a real estate license, have a decent job, am raising three healthy children, trying to be a good wife, went to church regularly, have a decent house, worked 50+ hours per week excluding house chores etc... What else could a woman want? Throughout it all, I found myself questioning the love of God for me, His salvation purpose, His reality, and my purpose for living on earth.

Having been raised a Catholic for almost twenty years before attending WCG, I taught that I was serving my God with my whole heart. I was baptized as an infant, had first communion, was reconfirmed, took communion regularly, read my bible -- but realized a while back that it was without much understanding-- memorized few scriptures, etc, but something was amiss!

My becoming a WCG member earlier signified to me that I was more accepted by God for being part of an exclusive, “sanctified” group of people. That Pharisaic state of mind, constraining me into legalism, was my worst enemy into knowing, accepting, receiving the love of God in my life, and dispensing the love of God into others' lives. But I realize now, if people knew when they were deceived and blind, they would change. We would all be in the truth, and the glory of God would be over the whole earth now as the water covers the seas.

However, through this soul searching time, the hand of the Lord was upon me and I started reading the bible more inquisitively. I needed questions answered. Suddenly, Jesus opened my eyes and enlightened my soul with the true desire to know him for who He is. The Lord answered my questions while reading the bible through the following verses: (1) believing in a triune divinity as one person, and believing that one member of the trinity, the Spirit God, lives in me and I in him, (See Galatians 2:20; John:14:15-18; Matthew 28:19); (2) accepting that I share all authority given to Jesus on heaven and on earth, and that He will never leave me nor forsake me (See Matthew 28:18-20; Luke 10:19); (3) understanding that the Father loves me as much as He loves Jesus (See John 17:13-23); (4) believing that the bible is the true Word of God, and accepting faithfully all the promises in the bible regarding my life as a child of God (See 2 Corinthians 1:20; Romans 8:14-17); and at last, (5) receiving, believing that all good things come from God, and that He wants good things for me (See Matthew 7:11; James 1:17).

I realized that I am Christ's Ambassador to show His goodness to all I am coming in contact with in my daily life. I have great hope and faith that what I saw happening to the seventy two and the twelve disciples in Luke 10:1- 23 and Matthew 10:1 is also happening in my life to the glory of God and for the deliverance of men and women when I pray for them. Didn't Jesus say that there are signs that will accompany those who believe?

Jesus gave me authority to use His name. I have, and I will continue to! Aren't all things being accomplished, through faith, by His Holy Spirit in me? Then, I have decided that I will trust and obey, be submissive, and allow Him to use me. Without faith it is impossible to please God, and the just shall live by faith (See Hebrews 11:6). I rather believe in these truths than not believe. Otherwise, I would have to question my own salvation.

Despite the mountains of family and financial issues, betrayals, and, at times, illnesses, I have the peace that surpasses all understanding. The Master knows the way I take, and I know who is in control. I suggest to all to have faith, live the love life, have compassion, praise God always in all things, pray for all, rebuke all things in your life contrary to the Word of God in the name of Jesus, do everything with all your heart as unto the Lord, and see the power of God manifested in your life and others around you according to Jesus perfect will.

My life became drastically changed only after I understood my purpose on earth and what God is accomplishing in a believer's life. My mind is being renewed everyday in the image of its Creator. The journey is great with Christ because the destination is certain. It is daily sanctification leading into a glorious loving relationship. Glory to God! It is the most awesome, exciting experience of my lifetime so far. At this stage in my life, I am hungry for the glory, the love of my father, His full manifestation in my life, and for all that Jesus has for me. I decided that I will not settle for anything less. What about you?

Blessed are those who hear the Word of God and obey it! (Luke 11:28)

Marie Monaus